One year from now

Today is November 1rst and after a lot of planning, thinking and preparing I want to embark on a one year journey. I want this upcoming year to be fully dedicated to health.

I want to focus on my overall health in every sense. Mind, body , spirit. I spent all of October working on this.
its easy for me to be super hard on myself and say i didn't achieve anything in October but thats not true.

in October i did the following:

I DEVELOPED THE SHRMMF CHECK IN METHOD. THAT WAS LIFE CHANGING IN IT OF ITSELF. KUDOS TO ME AND MY DEEP DESIRE TO THRIVE AND LIFE A FULL LIFE.

SELF- did my analysis with major major life changing gain, faced my loneliness, faced my grief and created a monumental Day of the Dead ofrenda and won first place in a friendly work competition.

- i improved the care of my skin drastically with skincare and consistently using sunscreen.

- i improved my style drastically.

- i became MORE of a morning person. I woke up on time more often, got to work more often and even got to work early. I discovered that leaving my house at 630am and arriving at 7am can drastically change my life

HOME
- i got the house cleaned up the most i had in three months. I organized a house cleaner once and figured out how to get our home in a more livable situation

- J and i worked together in the month of October to get things more organized and work on things together.


RELATIONSHIP
- we spent more quality time together. we spent MORE QUALITY time together4

- we worked through some important issues together in money and home category.

MOVEMENT
- I stretched alot this month all focused on decreasing my psoas pain and thats exactly what i eliminated.

MONEY
- half way through on a money - pay off all debt plan-

- completed BT and reached over 100k in assets.

- also curated a plan to start my side hustle on 11/12

FOOD
- i did some tracking, decreasing of soda and carb intake I also did some solid couponing for money saving around food.

- i did my first ever reasonably planned meal planning for the first week of November!!!!

okay so it wasn't perfect by ANY means but i did something big in October. it was my PRESTART TO MY YEAR. this is my year. this is my month. i turn 32 at the end of the month. and this year im going to reach all my goddamn goals. im going to do it in a gentle invigorated kind of way. Im showing up for my life in a totally different way.

And if someone else, cant see me? cant understand me? cant support me? i will remind myself that its not my problem. I will not make someone elses problem my problem. I feel so much more ALIVE today.

i am ready to live my actual life. not the life i wish i had. not the life i didnt get to have. not the life that was taken from me at a young age when my mom died. not the life that i could have had if my father had addressed his own trauma and hadn't been abusive. not the life that i pretend to have in my compartmentalized self.

i am ready to live my messy, non perfect, perfectly wild and intense and boring and unfair and extraordinarily blessed life.

Day 1 of 365

Day # 1 of YEAR of IMPERFECT ALIGNMENT - MONDAY 11/1/2021

ROUTINE
Bed Time: 11PM
Wake up time: 6:15AM
Leave the house time: 7:30AM

SHRMMF

SELF
Mental: Getting exciting, getting ready to make this happen, facing my neediness

Gratitude: Grateful for Dreamwidth, my mother, my analyst, my job, my flexibility, my intelligence

Beauty: acne mask in the morning, cuticle oil in the morning, drinking my water, shaved legs, took make up off in evening and focused on moisturizing my skin

Outfit: Red top, black pants, leopard flats, red lipstick

Vitamins: Ovasitol, probiotic

HOME
My Personal Stuff: did not have the energy to do a clean up of my closet like i had planned.

Common space: common space is decent because of the guests we had over yesterday

Bedroom/Bath: did not have the energy to do a clean up bathroom like i had planned.

Outside/Garage: did not have the energy to do a clean up my garage like i had planned.

Declutter: n/a

RELATIONSHIPS
J: tonight we'll hang out after his therapy session: we hung out for a little bit but did not have quality time together
Friends: checked on Jo (her baby is due any day now)
Family: followed up with sisters/stepmom, booked tickets to visit my inlaws to be, corresponding with uncle and grandma

MONEY/CAREER
Making $: working $190 take home pay
Spending $: Spent $5 on food, spent $400 signing up for one year membership at gym
Saving $$: made my gym purchase in bulk in order to save in the long run, saved about $200 throughout the year
Investing $: $85.34 saved per day in 401k (my contribution and employers combined)

MOVEMENT
Stretching: stretched in zumba class
Cardio: completed a zumba class
Strength: did squats in zumba class

FOOD
Water- 3 cups at work,
Breaky- Sausage, egg, onion, and eggs
Lunchy- chickens, onion, bell pepper, and one dinner roll (36 ish grams of carbs)
Snacky- coffee and half a Madeline (10 grams of carbs) and some nuts
Dinner- salad and chicken tenders

coffee creamer carbs - 50 ish grams of carbs

TOTAL CARB ESTIMATION- 150 CARBS

Today's To Do list

NOT DONE- make my Christmas list
NOT DONE- one box from garage
NOT DONE- organize half my closet
DONE- make a private practice list for 11/12 meeting:
1. take a picture
2. obtain a bio for website
3. contact ale about next step
DONE- schedule quarterly teeth cleaning
NOT DONE- have joey take my measurements

Reflections

11/1 Today is a big day for me. Im striving for progress not perfection.

11/2 So yesterday was a big day. it was not perfect. and i think that it all needs to be okay. it was my first time going to the gym since pre-pandemic. i was exhausted and unable to do anything else. i didn't clean my room or anything else but i did the best that i could and got to sleep early.