Weekend Reset

This weekend I want to reset from a really hard week. Scratch that, It's been a hard month. we've had visitors in our home from out of town and actually still have someone staying with us. There's been financial stress, family stress and lots of unexpected things that need to be dealt with.

So this weekend...I want to be strategic about how I do things.

I have one appointment and one errand that I need to do and some quick chores around the house.

After that the goal is to spend Saturday with my partner recovering from our really tough week. He and I have some big ticket items to discuss with each other and I hope we can get to them this weekend. More on that later.

I want to end my Saturday with my fourth consecutive walk around my neighborhood.

Sunday I'm driving to San Diego to help my sister move because she starts law school on Monday!

It's 8am now and im going to start with some grooming. Shower, facial mask, shave legs and just get myself ready for a good day and even better weekend.

The Worst Fight

Today ended up going to shit. We had the worst fight. My partner and I. The worst fight. It was not the worst because of how it went or the content. It is the worst fight because of how we both feel. We can feel that this fight can be a deal breaker for us. I don't want to break up and I don't think he does either but it feels as if this particular topic is it for us. We're fighting about money management in our relationship and how money affects our ever day life and everyday decision. I've mentioned to him more than once my concerns about marriages end in divorce all the time because of money. We're not married but that's one of the things we're supposed to be saving for. And we're not because of our joint overspending. Its a problem that keeps me up at night and for him it's a "we'll figure it out eventually" thing.

It hurts my fucking heart to hear how upset he is. But if i dont say how i feel authentically and genuinely then ... I will be so fucking unhappy.

I don't know what the solution is. But we need to try something new... anything new.