The Worst Fight

[intentional_life]

Today ended up going to shit. We had the worst fight. My partner and I. The worst fight. It was not the worst because of how it went or the content. It is the worst fight because of how we both feel. We can feel that this fight can be a deal breaker for us. I don't want to break up and I don't think he does either but it feels as if this particular topic is it for us. We're fighting about money management in our relationship and how money affects our ever day life and everyday decision. I've mentioned to him more than once my concerns about marriages end in divorce all the time because of money. We're not married but that's one of the things we're supposed to be saving for. And we're not because of our joint overspending. Its a problem that keeps me up at night and for him it's a "we'll figure it out eventually" thing.

It hurts my fucking heart to hear how upset he is. But if i dont say how i feel authentically and genuinely then ... I will be so fucking unhappy.

I don't know what the solution is. But we need to try something new... anything new.