Spiritual Beliefs
Sep. 8th, 2021 12:05 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
intentional_lifeI find that i'm spending some time diving into my own spiritual beliefs lately. and you know...i don't really like to share them with anyone. Its something ive mentioned in the past is something i hold so private.
lately in my therapy sessions Ive been opening up about them and its so incredibly painful to do it. This feels so ... surprising to me. Its not that i just want to keep them private its that it hurts to share it.
I used to say that my fear was that others would judge, taint or destroy my beliefs. THat I kept all of this to myself because of my fears that it would tarnish what i hold so sacred.
Of course the logical question is... if its that easily tarnished, then can you really claim its a blief or that its as sacred as you say it is...
but the thing is that ... right now... as i put light on this... i feel as if...its oxidating my spirituality. i feel a little lost... i feel like i'm the one doing the tainting and destroying.
its almost as if my spiritual self KNOWS ME so well that she was trying to protect me from me.
IM TRYING TO PROTECT MYSELF FROM MYSELF. WTF> that sounds insane. this sounds insane...but...its...whats...happening............what..... dont even know what else to say...... trying to protect myself from myself.
all right.
lately in my therapy sessions Ive been opening up about them and its so incredibly painful to do it. This feels so ... surprising to me. Its not that i just want to keep them private its that it hurts to share it.
I used to say that my fear was that others would judge, taint or destroy my beliefs. THat I kept all of this to myself because of my fears that it would tarnish what i hold so sacred.
Of course the logical question is... if its that easily tarnished, then can you really claim its a blief or that its as sacred as you say it is...
but the thing is that ... right now... as i put light on this... i feel as if...its oxidating my spirituality. i feel a little lost... i feel like i'm the one doing the tainting and destroying.
its almost as if my spiritual self KNOWS ME so well that she was trying to protect me from me.
IM TRYING TO PROTECT MYSELF FROM MYSELF. WTF> that sounds insane. this sounds insane...but...its...whats...happening............what..... dont even know what else to say...... trying to protect myself from myself.
all right.
