Deconstructing who I am
Sep. 7th, 2021 08:15 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
intentional_lifeI feel like i'm in the process of deconstructing who I am and how i came to be who i am today. I feel as if i'm in this journey of pulling myself apart to fully fully know how each part of me came to be.And as I am pulled apart-limb by limb- its so painful. its so hard to really look at the bloody mess. But its only in looking and the willingness to know whats there and to really see what it is that you can stop being a stranger to yourself. and when we stop being strangers to ourselves, we get to make more sense. we can live with resonance . we get to live with coherence. we get to live an authentically US life.
i am made up of my lived experiences, I am made up of painful traumas, i am made up of my successes and failures and fears and desires. I am made up of the ways in which i survived difficult things. The way i think and the way i get through difficult things is a specific sequence of my parts of self reacting to other parts of myself. And so many of my emotional experiences are just reactions to reactions to reactions and so it begs the question of who am i really, then?
i am made up of my lived experiences, I am made up of painful traumas, i am made up of my successes and failures and fears and desires. I am made up of the ways in which i survived difficult things. The way i think and the way i get through difficult things is a specific sequence of my parts of self reacting to other parts of myself. And so many of my emotional experiences are just reactions to reactions to reactions and so it begs the question of who am i really, then?
