Office Drama 101
Sep. 1st, 2021 09:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
intentional_lifei have always considered myself to be "above office politics". UMM NOTTTTT!
i came to a rude awakening when i realized that i am not above shit.
i am just as prone as the next schmuck to fall trap to gossip and other immature antics.
my analyst has helped me see that this incident at my workplace is not just a good opportunity to learn but rather an essential component of growth. It is only in enactments that we can grow and turn towards truth rather than away from it.
as much as i want to believe that my intention behind going to my mentee with information about her performance (that i had overheard from someone in the work place who yields clout and power) was pure in intention i have to admit to myself that there was an element of gossip and ... amibiguity in what i was doing. an element of "can i get away with being the 'good guy' without actually having to do the 'right' thing?
if i am claiming that i want transparency and "no drama" at the work place it made ZERO SENSE to go to another person to talk about what another person said.
i have to admit that I partook in the drama and deepened it.
im proud to say that i didn't ignore it or sweep it under the rug. after i partook in said interaction i went to the original gossiper and admitted to having done the same and apologized for going behind his back. initially he was angry, frustrated and even a bit spiteful in his reaction. and then he understood, accepted my apology and we all worked it out. like big boys and girls. it was a mature-ish moment. what shocks me to my core is how leading up to this resolution I experienced FIVE ENTIRE DAYS OF UNRAVELING.
i write now from the perspective of someone who has had the opportunity to process these events. but i did not get the chance to document what my five days leading up to today were like: from the moment i spoke to my mentee and realized i had initiated a unnecessary drama until the moment today when i had the opportunity to talk individually with each person involved to apologize and clear the air. the five days of time between the start and finish of the situation have been unreal and ill elaborate on that in my next post because i think it deserves its own space.
i came to a rude awakening when i realized that i am not above shit.
i am just as prone as the next schmuck to fall trap to gossip and other immature antics.
my analyst has helped me see that this incident at my workplace is not just a good opportunity to learn but rather an essential component of growth. It is only in enactments that we can grow and turn towards truth rather than away from it.
as much as i want to believe that my intention behind going to my mentee with information about her performance (that i had overheard from someone in the work place who yields clout and power) was pure in intention i have to admit to myself that there was an element of gossip and ... amibiguity in what i was doing. an element of "can i get away with being the 'good guy' without actually having to do the 'right' thing?
if i am claiming that i want transparency and "no drama" at the work place it made ZERO SENSE to go to another person to talk about what another person said.
i have to admit that I partook in the drama and deepened it.
im proud to say that i didn't ignore it or sweep it under the rug. after i partook in said interaction i went to the original gossiper and admitted to having done the same and apologized for going behind his back. initially he was angry, frustrated and even a bit spiteful in his reaction. and then he understood, accepted my apology and we all worked it out. like big boys and girls. it was a mature-ish moment. what shocks me to my core is how leading up to this resolution I experienced FIVE ENTIRE DAYS OF UNRAVELING.
i write now from the perspective of someone who has had the opportunity to process these events. but i did not get the chance to document what my five days leading up to today were like: from the moment i spoke to my mentee and realized i had initiated a unnecessary drama until the moment today when i had the opportunity to talk individually with each person involved to apologize and clear the air. the five days of time between the start and finish of the situation have been unreal and ill elaborate on that in my next post because i think it deserves its own space.
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Date: 2021-09-03 05:47 am (UTC)That took guts. I would've avoided the person and sweated bullets until everything blew over, lol.