becoming a parentless adult

[intentional_life]

when my grandma passed away a few weeks ago, it really came to my attention that i have two grandparents left and one parent left. these are the three individuals who care about me the most in the world. of those two grandparents one of them is really losing her health. she is really struggling with her health. she's not really available to be the loving grandmother i have known her to be. it makes me incredibly sad to feel like i am losing my parental figures. first in my mom when I was tiny and now in my grandparents. a few years ago i almost lost my dad. it was one of the scariest moments of my life. because i was old enough to understand what it all meant. i think that i might have even saved his life. i just really struggle with having those deep connections. i miss my mom and my miss my grandmother and my other grandfather. these are my ancestors. the people who came before me and made it possible for me to be here right now. we are truly amazing Devine miracles of existence. Its scary to imagine going into a world without parental figures. i know it will happen one day. its just so hard to imagine.

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[nibblezz]

I'm so sorry about your grandmother.

For the most part, they have been with us for our entire lives, it would certainly be hard to adjust with that kind of absence. I dread the day when my mom passes.