organization in the chaos

[intentional_life]

so im not sure if this is realted to chaos (not string) theory of not but my life is the most chaotically organized its ever been. im in this tornado right now of feelings, events and things that don't make any sense and make all the sense of the world. I feel like a surge of energy is within me. it feels like I am becoming reborn again. oh gosh that sounds like im going through a psychotic break and I am not. im jus tfeeling like life is so hard but my understanding gof the hardnes sof life is changings. its almost like I am able to know on a deep level that my struggles are okay. and that being a human is okay. the challenges are okay. I will be okay. the okayness in the chaos Is there. there is a sense of calm in the storm. in the eye of the hurricane. I am the eye. Eye. I.