Day 18 of 365

THURSDAY 11/18/2021

S- analysis, break thru "dont want to depend on one person"
H- got this place looking OK. BIG IMPROVEMENT
R- took care of J, he reached out to my step mom, plans to see parents
M- WENT TO FUCKING ZUMBA even with a UTI. watch out world!
F- didnt spend on anything other than a christmas gift for parents
F- had low carb breaky, heavy lunch which was amazing (provided by work), and a light dinner. drank water.

DAY 17 WAS A MOTHER EFF WIN. I FELT LIKE SHIT AND DID WHAT I HAD TO DO ANYWAY. I FUCKING ROCK.

Day 19 of 365

Day # 19 of YEAR of IMPERFECT ALIGNMENT FRIDAY - 11/19/2021

it is usually around this time in a reset, or new years resolution that i usually give up. i feel like a failure, i feel like im not perfect and therefore cannot reset until ive spiraled in the abyss of bullshit. and then i have that montage run thru my mind of resetting. that does not work and my biggest biggest win during all of this is that i didnt spiral despite having a literal infection in my body. i wanted to spiral AND I also knew i was going to be ok on some level. I WOKE UP AT MOTHER FUCKING 5AM TODAY.

BIG DAY TODAY!!!
TODAY'S "HAVE TO GET IT DONE " ITEMS
1. GET MANI PEDI AT LUNCH TIME
2. AFTER WORK GO TO CHIRO, DSW, MACYS AND TARGET (lol) THATS ALOT. MIGHT NEED TO RETHINK. ITS FOR RETURNS.
3. HAVE BUDGET MEETING PART 2 W J
4. FINISH CLEANING MY CLOSET
5. CONFIRM HAIR APT FOR TOMORROW AND CLEANING SERVICE APT FOR SUNDAY

ROUTINE
Bedtime: 10p?
Wake up time: 5am on the dot!!
Leave the house time: 718am! made it work on time and actually 10 min early!