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endings and beginnings
Oct. 4th, 2021 08:59 amok so today marks an ending and a beginning of a new chapter for me.
yesterday our (uncomfortably overextended) house guest left after being at our home for almost three months. he's the best friend of my partner, J. He came to stay with us after a break up situation and unemployment situation. he most definitely over-extended his welcome to an uncomfortable time line. and although, i do enjoy his company I dont like the disrespect i experienced and i had to set some boundaries about his time with us. luckily J understood and made it happen.
J's mom came to stay with us for two weeks which was hard on me but that's his mom! im going to always work on having a great relationship with his mom. She's a wonderful human and its normal we will occasionally disagree on things but his best friend staying with us was SO HARD ON ME.
it was just back to back to back to back to back stressors. It's not that i expect life to be perfect but alot of the stressors i was dealing with were preventable. they were related to a lack of boundaries. they were related to issues that I thought i had resolved which were clearly UNRESOLVED. so behold...the gift of struggle. i believe that these last three months have been some of the hardest months of my life. I also think these last three months have been some of the most growth promoting months of my life. I think that as i approach my birthday THIRTY TWO!!!!! I am struck with what I really want to curate in my life. What look, life style, wealth and health i want to promote in my life. ANd THHHHAT IS..what my next chapter is about.
yesterday our (uncomfortably overextended) house guest left after being at our home for almost three months. he's the best friend of my partner, J. He came to stay with us after a break up situation and unemployment situation. he most definitely over-extended his welcome to an uncomfortable time line. and although, i do enjoy his company I dont like the disrespect i experienced and i had to set some boundaries about his time with us. luckily J understood and made it happen.
J's mom came to stay with us for two weeks which was hard on me but that's his mom! im going to always work on having a great relationship with his mom. She's a wonderful human and its normal we will occasionally disagree on things but his best friend staying with us was SO HARD ON ME.
it was just back to back to back to back to back stressors. It's not that i expect life to be perfect but alot of the stressors i was dealing with were preventable. they were related to a lack of boundaries. they were related to issues that I thought i had resolved which were clearly UNRESOLVED. so behold...the gift of struggle. i believe that these last three months have been some of the hardest months of my life. I also think these last three months have been some of the most growth promoting months of my life. I think that as i approach my birthday THIRTY TWO!!!!! I am struck with what I really want to curate in my life. What look, life style, wealth and health i want to promote in my life. ANd THHHHAT IS..what my next chapter is about.
